ITT: WILD WILD VENTING (and anger management issues)
I live in a shitty place, and since the house is small i have to sleep in the same room with my 13 years old sister (also butt ugly) who refuses to let me sleep past 7:30 in the morning even if she knows perfectly that i suffer for insomnia. Because of this, i am stressed all the time when i don't have to go to school, and sometimes i have to go to school after having slept for barely 2 hours. Since i can't sleep, i can't concentrate and have been having increasingly horrible grades since when the insomnia problem started, and because of this i'll probably have to repeat the school year. If i don't have to, i will always have to take repairation exams at september, thus losing at the same time the chance to go to New York for holiday (the reason why i've been studying englis for the last, like, 5 years) and to go to a slightly better school where i will actually learn something.
ALSO! because of all of above, i've been having increeeeasingly bad anger problems. For now, i'm solving it with self-harm, and i AM getting increasingly violent with myself (i have wounds in very-hidden places that have not fully healed in weeks) and i get so angry i often have to throw up, so my parents may start thinking i'm anorexic or something. Ironically, my weight didn't drop a pound.
Oh, and i'm devloping a phobia for young children and pregnant women, and most people think i'm crazy because i actually think that mongoloids (down syndrome and such) should not have the right to live.
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