Life seems so strange sometimes. Much of my life was spent wishing for a dream I thought was impossible and eventually gave up on, then it suddenly stumbled into my lap long after I gave up, suddenly out of the blue. I've been living my dream for several years now. I have someone who makes me happy, and I can make happy, the only thing that truly feels like it matters now is protecting and maintaining that happiness. I've failed lots and gone through many struggles the last few years, but it still feels overwhelmingly happy. I wouldn't trade any of that struggle for the world. I think back to life before and it just seemed, empty, lonely. If I can just maintain my happy home, until the day I die, that wouldn't be so bad. I have my own home, a dog, and my channer /tr/ap gf. Everything else is just extra.
Sure I still have goals, things I want, things I want to do, places I want to travel, and even things in the world I would love to change, but none of those feel like necessities. Even as the world seems to be crumbling around me, as long as I have someone to laugh at it with, everything is fine.
tfw RM truly taught me I should strive to improve myself and get past my hikki ways
All I can say for your own happiness is, you may not realize you have it until it shows yourself. It may suddenly just arrive. Every day, just prepare yourself to be ready for opportunity wherever it may arrive. Also the more you focus on it, the more it seems to wait to arrive, so sometimes its best to think of other things, the wait will seem shorter that way.
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