I can't believe it's been so long.
This site is dead. The last post was made months ago. It's doubtful, from hereon, that there will ever be another one made. This site's doom is close, and any day, it will become just another grain of sand in the digital wind, tossed aside.
Yet, I remain.
I got into Rozen Maiden during an exceptionally tough time in my life. I was raised in a strictly religious and hostile family in a small country town, raised to become tough, rigid, strong, unyielding.
In high school, I had very few friends. I had built a room around myself, convinced myself I shall wander the earth alone, devoid of feeling, trapped in a cage built of stoicism.
I became close to a quiet, modest girl in creative writing class. What caught my eye was her binder, laden with all sorts of cut-outs of colorful figures. I found her sort of brave to not be afraid to stick out in a small school. She was thrilled someone was at least interested in her hobbies, and she told me all about the show. Eventually, we hung out at her house and we actually binged the entire first season.
It was midnight when we started episode 1 of Traumend. The ending was what tore me up inside.
I don't know what it was about it. The show captivated me because it was something that I had seen as ethereal and beautiful, in a world where rugged masculinity was the only law of life, the show was unafraid to shatter that visage. The ending song tore apart my cage, and held my shaking hand, and showed me a world of beauty I had never even conceived of.
I cried. For the first time since I was a child, I cried my eyes out. She didn't know what to do but hug me.
She was my first girlfriend. Before we could go all the way, she ended up cheating on me. So it goes.
I read the entire manga, up to the end. I felt like I finally moved past a part of my life.
Thank you very much for reading my short story. I just want you, every one of you, to know, I won't forget this site, this beautiful story, this community, as lame as it sounds. It might seem melodramatic or laying it on a bit thick, but I figure if this site won't exist for long, I might as well come out with everything.